Today Malia is 12 days old. Her beautiful and strong character is already beginning to show and yet the peace that she has as we maintain a connection that allows her to be in peace and satisfied with just being. Her eyes begin to explore the world around her and a smile comes to her face as she glances at mommy and feels her touch and love. Sabina, beautifully continues to discover and flourish in this new role of being a mommy. The unfolding of the nurturing nature that displays itself through a gentle voice and a pace that is her own is so delightful to witness. The songs that flow from her presence are soothing to all around her, myself included.
Yesterday as we were out and stopped by Kmart to get somethings for Sabina. Malia had a pooped diaper that got every where on her clothes and the stroller. The joy of cleaning poop and her is something that both of us were so glad to do, especially after not seeing any poop for the last two days, this was something that had us both concerned. After cleaning things up we looked at each other a beautiful appreciation that she was relief and feeling better.
The birth process was longer than expected and more difficult. We started on the 10th with some Castor oil to begin to stimulate labor and this was after trying the week before natural herbs & acupuncture. The castor oil did not do much to Sabina so we increased the dose and things finally began to move on the morning of the 11th, 5pm to be exact. I started to time the contractions… at first they were about 4-5 minutes apart and lasting about 1.5 minutes. They soon begin to come sooner, and from this place we called Dr. Ancharski and Leah the mid-wife to come and support us. We made a couple of calls and let Annalia make some more calls to people that we were starting the process of birth. This actually activated the support system that we had in place, where people began to send their love and beautiful supporting energy. And, it also activated the meals that will continue to come until this week 10 days after birth. The support from Toni L., in organizing this, has been a blessing that we never thought or even expected… It all started a few months ago with a coffee visit and Toni expressing the desire to bring us a meal and five minutes after she offered this beautiful intention to organize the food train… A humble appreciation for this act of love and care for our little family.
At first the labor process was going normal the contractions increasing in intensity and frequency, by 10am the cervix was 6cm dilated… Dr. A. Makes a prediction that baby may be here by noon. And, all of a sudden at around 10:30am the brakes were hit on the whole process… Labor stopped!! – This baffled everyone and yet we thought we just needed to rest, Sabina was checked and baby’s heart rate was always been monitored. 
This began a time of waiting, and soothing Sabina with cold compresses and massage on her lower back.
The hours passed, the food came, the coco water came from my brother Tim and the labor continued, i honestly lost track of time as i was fully focused on my beloved Sabina and her needs. Mine was to be there for her and support her with my presence, love and acts of service letting her know that she was not doing this alone. During this time of waiting we tried walking, the little inflatable pool
and all the was taught before this time. The training we received from Barbara E. was remembered and so helpful… For this we are so grateful.
Finally at 6:00pm Sabina and i made a decision to go to the hospital. The birth in medical terms was arrested, basically on hold… It never stopped it just slowed down. After sharing the decision with the Dr. A and the midwife they supported us and Dr.A phone the hospital to alert them that we were headed their way. We were lovingly received and taken to the room that would be the place where the rest of the labor would continued.
In the hospital i realized how my Sabina was dehydrated and getting so weak. After she got started on the ivi and her bladder was finally emptied, the relief was very apparent and the color began to return to her lovely face. The meds that were designed to aid in the labor process were started about an hour after we were in the hospital at first a very gentle dose and this dose was increased with the passing of the hours…. Soon the contractions began to become more rhythmically and increased in intensity. The cervix and her whole body responded to the meds and soon we found ourselves in labor… at 9cm dilation she begins to push and the baby’s head is apparent and yet again the progress stops, but not before a scare we all had as the baby’s heart began to drop drastically, i lovingly ask Sabina to quickly change positions and get in all fours and as we did this the baby began to react and heart beat began to speed up and be more normal… the meds were stopped allowing baby and mommy to have a chance to recover and rest. All of this took us to 6am on June 12th. Dr. Mathis came in, and in a gentle and loving demeanor shares with us… You have been pushing already for over two hours and i don’t see any progress… He offered that we should do a c-session and at this point we agreed with him. We asked him when can this be done and he said i can be ready in 25 minutes. We gave our blessings and our signature to the hospital and began the next leg of our journey.
My beloved Sabina was taken from the room and prepared for surgery and a spinal tap was given to her to get her ready for surgery. I awaited on my rabbit outfit and soon was taken back to meet my beloved. I was relieved to see her and held back the sense of fear from seeing her in this vulnerable position. As we glanced at each other and patiently waited for the medical staff to deliver our baby, i remembered fear beginning to creep in, i held my tears back and stayed present to my beloved…supporting and assuring her that all was going to be ok. The fear came as i noticed my beloveds body been shifted and moved… soon we hear the cry of our child and the blues cover is taken down so we can see the sex of our beloved baby… I looked at my Sabina and said it’s Malia! – She is taken to be cleaned and soon i am taken to join my gorgeous girl and i am invited to cut the cord… Wow! the tears again began to want to come and flow and they were held back so i could be present to my girl.
Malia Pu’uwai-Mauri was put on my arms and i took her to mom… the surrealness of this moment was so intense that i was happy to be guided by the loving staff of the hospital. I took our beloved Malia to mommy and put her on her breast and she immediately latched on and began to nurse. The miracle and sacredness of this moment was something that allowed all fears and the time of this journey to tumbled down and a deep appreciation was shared by both of us. I went back to the room with my beloved Malia and showed abuelita her new granddaughter, her smile and joy shined as the sun reaches out through the clouds in a beautiful cloudy sunrise. 
My beloved was taken back to join us and as she said… all the time and hard work just fell and all there was nothing but peace for the guidance of Spirit and the support of our beloved ohana. One more thing… My beloved Sabina did her labor with no pain medication… She is one of the most strongest and robust woman i have ever met. I am humbled to have such a partner and look forward to many years in this earth-walk that we have been granted by Spirit.
Reflections…
As, we reflect back on this journey there is nothing that we would change in this whole experience and beautiful birth event. From the time of knowing that we were pregnant, to the many months being separated and finally coming together to strengthen our bond and relationship… to getting married and now living in one of the most beautiful places in the world and experiencing the birth of our beloved child. Wow! Always knowing and feeling in the background the gentle caress and care of Spirit for all of us. We give thanks to Christ and Spirit realm for the beautiful guidance we have received and continue to receive throughout this journey. We give thanks for our Ohana here on island and give thanks for our birth family that continues to send their love. I personally give thanks for my two beautiful girls Audrina & Marissa… This journey has brought so many memories to the surface and has definitely strengthen my bond to them. We give thanks for our friends in America and other continents that have share so much love with us.
We give thanks for conversations of clarification that we both shared as we got close to this beautiful birth event. Clarifications that were made about going to hospital if need be and being part of this amazing western medicine.
I personally give thanks for my beloved Sabina for being a courageous and loving warrior queen and goddess! She is definitely a gem and beautiful sight to behold and treasure.
We give thanks for an umbilical cord being wrapped around Malia’s precious little neck 3 times and give thanks for the hand of our guides and angels always stopping the process when things were getting too much for our beloved Malia.
We give thanks for loving, compassionate, caring and capable staff at Wilcox Hospital.
I know we both give thanks for late nights… specially the second night being at home that was real tough for all of us and yet being able to re-enforce the bond of love that we all share… a bond of peace and grace in the midst of the crying and having to be patient because the milk had not come in yet to my beloveds breast. A bond of papi with Malia! And a bond between the both of us… that is filled with such grace and nurturance towards each other.
Special gratitude for Abuelita Marlis and her friend Heidi. Their love, support in acts of service that range from cleaning, cooking or just offering a loving smile or affirmation have been so nurturing to all us.
A deep heartfelt thanks for the Hanai Grandparents (Annalia & Paolo) that have desired to be connected to our beloved Malia and us in this beautiful bond of love. Annalia, has and continues to be a protector of our space at our studio and the beautiful land where we live. And Paolo has provided so much emotional support to the both of us and we are now enjoying a time in his beautiful home while he cares for his precious mom.
Gratitude to our beloved angels and their families that have provided beautiful and delicious meals that has sustained us through this time. Your love has certainly has been tasteful and satisfying to our bodies and soul.
The conspiracy of love will continue as we both conspire to creating and environment of love and grace for our beloved Malia Pu’uwai-Mauri.
Mahalo for reading and being interested in our journey… Mahalo for your love and grace! – May all that you desired for us be given to you multiplied and abundantly.
In love… Willian & Sabina